12-28-2020 Journal Entry, aka Feeling Alone

I had to take Arrena to the airport at 3:30am so she could meet Paul in Michigan.  When I went to bed, I cried for you and for the thought of her moving to Michigan.  I can't lose her too or my future grandbabies.  I slept in your bed again.  I know there's things I need to do, things to get rid of or put away, but I just can't yet.  Kimberly was over to clean today and asked about cleaning the garage and basement and I just can't.  What am I going to do with all your tools?  And I just sit here all day doing nothing.  I watch Billy play xbox and scroll Facebook.  I have no energy or motivation to do anything else.  How do I get out of this depression?