Muck & Mire

I can't put into words the way I have been feeling lately. I won the genetic lottery (sarcasm) when I inherited this depression from my dad. It's not always a black plague, but I am currently in a deep, dark valley. Five minutes ago, as I was trying to sort through it all, I began to whisper this song because it was the only thing that I could think of. Funny though, because, though the lyrics are what I feel, the title is the exact opposite of what I feel like right now. Healing medicine, to hear your deepest feelings expressed by someone else when you can't.

Smile
by Chris Rice

How far are You?
How close am I?
I know Your words are true when I don’t feel them inside
Still I believe You’ll never leave
So where are You now?

You’re all I have
You’re all I’ve known
Your breath is breathing in my soul
Still I am gasping, aching, asking,
Where are you now?

‘Cause I just want to be with You
I dream about Your promise to return
I just want this waiting to be over
And I wake up hangin’ on Your every word
I just want to be with You
For now my feet are planted here on earth
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer
And it helps to know the day is getting closer
But every minute takes an hour
Every inch feels like a mile
Till I won’t have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile.

My journey’s here, but my heart is There
So I dream and wait, and keep the faith, while You prepare
Our destiny, till You come back for me
Oh, please make it soon!

‘Cause I just want to be with You
I dream about Your promise to return
I just want this waiting to be over
And I wake up hangin’ on Your every word
I just want to be with You
For now my feet are planted here on earth
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer
And it helps to know the day is getting closer
But every minute takes an hour
Every inch feels like a mile
Till I won’t have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile.